It’s hard to explain the isolation Particularly when looking into his eyes. If only to tell him that it’s ok not to understand.   Surrounded, as I so often am, with those who want to love me, and watching from the rocky surface, cool steel my only companion, Is intrinsically wrong. That’s where I feel … More Meh

there is so much to say that i’m not sure there are words pain is consuming me to the point of agony stealing my joy holding my foot on the stool is misery necessary for creation? i don’t know, but it certainly seems to help i long for the days when i was free free … More

To you

Do you know you almost killed me? Almost robbed me of my mother and my husband? That split second choice you made could have ended your own life. You could have made me a killer. I still see you in your white car, careening across my field of vision. It took less than 10 seconds … More To you

some thoughts on loving oneself, or, how i got drunk on a thursday night in october

Someone told me recently that I am really mean to myself. It might have even been me. I read a Khalil Gibran quote yesterday, he said, “God told me to love my enemy, and I obeyed and loved myself.” loving myself. I still don’t understand what that means. I made it to 31 years of … More some thoughts on loving oneself, or, how i got drunk on a thursday night in october

My story (so far)

So, this really all started back in February, when I decided that I was going to drive halfway across the country (from Austin, TX to Walla Walla, WA.) A bit of background: I am a formerly homeless, recently married, morbidly obese woman.  To say that I am not good with saving money and don’t have much … More My story (so far)

I miss you so

I wish you were here to read these words, though I know you can feel their imprint upon my heart. What an amazing man you are, I’m sure the best there has ever been. How blessed I have been to know you, to live in the echoes of your eternity. I’ve been walking around in … More I miss you so

Thank you

I think I need to take a minute to let you know how amazing you truly are. 7 years ago right now, you were staying lots of places, trying to figure out what to make of yourself. You wound up in some scary moments, alone, afraid, and starving.  Then one day everything changed. You owe … More Thank you