This moment

suddenly, nausea, hives altering the topography of my skin. fear. i am afraid all of the time. the sense of safety so diligently cultivated stolen swiftly in a melange of squealing tires and crashing metal. i used to love driving they were the moments where i found peace. i’m a city kid, each teenage fervor, agitation, sentiment … More This moment

To you

Do you know you almost killed me? Almost robbed me of my mother and my husband? That split second choice you made could have ended your own life. You could have made me a killer. I still see you in your white car, careening across my field of vision. It took less than 10 seconds … More To you

Say something

    Somehow things have fallen into place. I have gone and returned and not much has changed, save for myself. It seems often the way of this world and it is such a cliche, yet it still there is truth. I wanted him so much to know me, I have seen now that he … More Say something

some thoughts on loving oneself, or, how i got drunk on a thursday night in october

Someone told me recently that I am really mean to myself. It might have even been me. I read a Khalil Gibran quote yesterday, he said, “God told me to love my enemy, and I obeyed and loved myself.” loving myself. I still don’t understand what that means. I made it to 31 years of … More some thoughts on loving oneself, or, how i got drunk on a thursday night in october

My story (so far)

So, this really all started back in February, when I decided that I was going to drive halfway across the country (from Austin, TX to Walla Walla, WA.) A bit of background: I am a formerly homeless, recently married, morbidly obese woman.  To say that I am not good with saving money and don’t have much … More My story (so far)

I miss you so

I wish you were here to read these words, though I know you can feel their imprint upon my heart. What an amazing man you are, I’m sure the best there has ever been. How blessed I have been to know you, to live in the echoes of your eternity. I’ve been walking around in … More I miss you so